Untold Feeling

#NowPlaying Awake - Secondhand Serenade

I don't know how to explain this sensation. This painful sensation. I'm tired of pain. I'm tired of being fake. I'm wearing masks nowadays. Happy mask. Pretending like there's nothing going on. But deep inside I have so much to say. It hurts me. It broke me. Broke my heart. Broke my feelings. Broke everything inside me. It's like my half of me has gone. I'm tired. Of this. All of this.

I hope you read this little shit. I hope you understand. I hope you realize how much I cared about. Well I miss you. I miss us. I re-read our old conversation. And I wish I can go back to that moment. Happy moment. I miss those little shits. Eventhough I was hurt that time. I love how we spent those times with jokes, laughs, pains, tears, and happiness. I miss you, idiot. Fucking miss you.

"Will you stay awake for me?"

#NowPlaying Need You Now - Lady Antebellum

I need you too, idiot. I need you here. I want you to hold me right now. Hug me tightly like you'll never let me go. I need you to stay. I remembered that day when I asked you to accompany me for staying up late. I wanted to sleep at 12 a.m, and suddenly you're lost. You said that your handphone battery's low but you still stayed up until 12 a.m. And I miss that time. I miss staying up late and talked about little things with you.

"Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all"